bell Jar #7

• What is wrong with Esther? Why does she try to kill herself?

The problem with Esther is that she hates herself, so much so that she would try and kill herself- which she has attempted to a few times already. According to her, she hasn’t slept in over a month. She can only read scandal sheets and her psychology books that inform her about what is wrong with her. Esther claims that she has no brain, and that by going to the beach with Jody would expose her lack of brains. She doesn’t find joy in anything she does anymore. Everything she does seems to turn out for the worse, such as when she goes to the hospital to help people who are worse off than she. But when Esther attempts to give flowers to the pregnant ladies, they get mad at her for not having the flowers they wanted on account of her throwing away the dead ones.